In no way am I a theologian, or an expert on the Bible. I'm just an 18 year old girl that believes in Jesus Christ, and goes to a Calvinistic church. I have the pleasure of belonging to a church family, as well as my own family, who goes to this church with me. There has never been a point in my life where I remember not being a Christian. I grew up in a Christian family, and I have been going to church ever since I was a baby. It's actually a very comforting thing to me, because I have never experienced a time (that I can remember) where I didn't know God.
I know in my heart that I am dead in sin. I know in my heart that I am perfect in Christ, and that he died on the cross for my sins. But I think a lot of people can relate to this when I say that I have trouble with being in the present, rather than focusing my sights on God.
Now, sometimes people misinterpret the Bible, and think that what they do here on earth affects their relationship with God. And that is simply not the case.
With that being said, at what point is it okay to be comfortable here on earth? At what point is it okay to be focused on goals, relationships, struggles, accomplishments, and everything in between? At what point do we become so wrapped up and focused on earthly things that it distracts us from the One who gave it all to us?
Focusing on the here and now is a good thing for a couple reasons. One, it keeps our minds from getting ahead of ourselves and worrying over things that haven't happened yet. Two, it helps us to not dwell on the past, and what we could or should have done. But at what point do we take it to far? At what point are we being completely absorbed in our possessions?
I have struggled with this ever since I could grasp the concept of earthly things and flesh. It is so hard to remember who is really in control, and realize that things are much bigger than me. The times that I feel like nothing is going right and nothing feels right, are the times that I forget who really makes the sun rise and fall every single day, and makes every thing that grows on the earth to keep growing. God is the one who keeps my heart beating, and my chest rising and falling as air enters and exits my lungs. He is the one who gave me everything and everyone in my life. And I am to busy to give him the praise he deserves.
It is important to know what God has blessed you with. God has blessed me with a loving and caring family, and amazing friends. He has blessed me with artistic talents. And He continues to bless me when I am able to witness others' happiness, so that I might share that happiness with them. God blesses me with the opportunity to lift up and encourage others. And I can't forget the fact that God blesses me with the ability to sympathize with others, and show true emotion.
Maybe someday I will be able to overcome this internal struggle, but due to the fact that I am far from perfect, I don't think that will ever happen. All I can do is live my life, and know that no matter what I do or feel, God knows me and will never ever abandon me.